Making friends with blogging again
I used to write. A lot. I used to write so much that I'd just fill notebooks with my ideas and blatherings and research and inner dialogue to the point where I'd buy the college-ruled notebooks by the five packs, and buy two. I'd doodle, leave shopping lists, write little stories and poems, and keep my to-do list all right there. I carried a backpack constantly, so I always had room for a notebook.
At some point, I seemed to lose my connection to paper. I still love notebooks, though. Often, I buy a book I think is pretty and would have filled from cover to cover in the past. Now, more often than not I've got most of these books on a shelf, maybe with a few pages written in one here or there. I've stopped carrying a notebook with me everywhere, and instead always have my phone or laptop.
Does this disconnection with the physical tend to make me less creative? I feel like I've connected to other people and been able to reach out more, offer more of my thoughts and ideas to share, but that I personally have lost a bit of the inspiration to write and create. I pick up notebooks, but that need to scribblescribblescribble and write and fill the pages has evolved to a more compartmentalized view. I tend to keep one book for one project, one thought process, and I like that a lot. But, I'm missing that free-flowing, open feeling of writing whenever it comes to me.
The opportunity to do so is still in the palm of my hand, figuratively and often quite literally. I have technology strapped to my hip at all times, much like I once always carried a notebook. Between my phone, laptop and its tablet pen, and a huge selection of creative software, I've got the ability to do just what I used to do. I just haven't rebuilt the habit.
They say it takes 21 days to build a habit. I've been feeling a little lost lately, and I'm thinking it's time to incorporate some new habits into my routine. I think it's time for me to make peace with the technological creative process, to make friends with sharing myself again. I think it's time to rededicate myself to blogging, even if I don't have a pattern or a project to share today. Every day there's something to write about. Every day is a new day, and most of those days are a blog entry just waiting to happen.
What do you think, those of you out there reading this? I know there's a few of you out there, but even if there isn't, nobody but Lilli ever saw my notebooks filled with yammering before anyway, and I still filled them up! I hope that if you're reading, you enjoy seeing more of the process of my inner workings. It's a little weird in this head of mine, but things are usually pretty good.